kekarutan dalam kekeliruan

okay tajuk tu tu saja je
actually i don't really know what i want to talk about
so let's see what will come out shall we






how do you defined rindu?
if you ask me
rindu is a feeling of longing for something or someone
like for example
"rindunye nak makan nasi lemak mak maimon"
"rindulah nak tengok muka si fauzan tu"
"baby,i miss you freakin damn much baby"(okay eeeeeeeeew)
that is some of the dialogue that define rindu to me lah that is
okay mesti ada yang tertanya2
why talk about rindu?
the reason here is because i am sure mana2 budak yang sama umur dgn aku
confirm is feeling this
some rindu of their friends
some rindu of their childhood
some rindu of their past achievement
some rindu of plkn perhaps haha
but almost everybody rindu to relieve their glory years which is
zaman sekolah lah







like yesterday i went through my twitter account
the trending topic is
#KehidupanDiSBP
nampak bebenor rindu kat sekolahnya
not just that
if you open your fb account
i'm sure you must have at least seen
"rindunya nak sekolah balik"
at least once on your news update
tak tipu i'm one of them
tapi takdalah sampai nak post kat wall
simpan dalam hati dah lah










many people actually bukannya rindu sangat2 dekat sekolah
but they are afraid to open a new chapter in their life
mana taknya
sekolah dulu relax je kan makan minum semua ada
nak lepak2 mak bagi duit
but now
things have changed
they are worried because they have to live on their own
tapi taklah on their own sangat
percayalah your first at universities mcm asrama je
so tak payah nak gelabah nak bayar bil semua tu
dah year ke berapa ke barulah boleh duduk luar kampus
unless ipts la
(kalau salah minta maaf aku pun bukan tau sgt)
so relax
you still got a long way wahai para lepasan spm 2011







okay actually i too sort of worried about that
tapi fikir balik
relax sudah haha
and to S
saja nak sebut baru nampak caring haha
I do miss you so much
i really do
i don't know if we could go on a date anymore coz when you're free
i probably be busy haha
anyway bukan S dpt baca pun
tapi kalau dapat baca okay jugak haha
okay dah dah la tu
perut pun dah berpeluh
i know this post is quite boring
tapi kisah apa aku
blog aku bukan korang haha

why i hate reminiscing

okay it's been a while since my last post
so this post is just for those who miss to read my blog haha
okay shall we start




reminiscing
i hate it so much
because it brings back memories
it brinngs back regrets
it brings back greatness
which you always know that you can't have them back
okay like tadi i went through a friend's old album at facebook
i laughed when i look back at them
i regret for not being good enough to them
i regret that some of them are not close to me as i used to
even some has become enemies
but the worst part of it is
i miss that moment so so so much







the album i'm talking about is memories of 2010 on kecik's fb
it really brings back memories that i had forget
i actually laughed sorang2 kot when looking back at those picture
then i stopped watching
bukan dah bosan
but i suddenly think of what happen in 2011
mcm2 benda kot dh berubah
let me highlights a few of them
me and kecik are not closed friend anymore
yes we are friends but just not that close
miry and me well tu tak berubah kot
cuma in 2011 me and him kurang skit kerapatan maybe sbb lain kelas kot
hazman and me
we are still close even until now and itu tak berubah since 2010 kot haha
me and adam bertambah rapat in 2011 tp in 2010 tnyalah adam macam mana haha
i grow to closer to strangers in 2011
but those who i used to be close in 2010
some of them become strangers
and even one become enemy for a while haha







so the conclusion here is
stop reminiscing of the past
all of it is just memories
you can't get them back
that best friend you lost because of a silly picture
that best friend who you used to sleep together with
that best friend who you used to hate
all of that are memories which you can never get it back
i regret a lot of things
my biggest regret is i think kecik knows what
tapi benda dah jadi
kalau asyik nak pandang belakang
depan kau nak campak mana?
okay enough for me now
ini memang luahan hati actually
and i will give everything that i have
to maintain what i have in 2010
the relationship
the fun
all about 2010 lah senang cakap
and still have it now in 2012